Finally Surrendered

I went to Hannah's Haven Recovery Home tonight, where the students (residents) drove all of us to tears with songs/dances of redemption and freedom. I cried with gratitude to God for raising up that home in His timing.

When we got home, Dayna called and told us that three guys moved into Glenwood, one or more of whom are interested in working with our boys. An answered prayer.

Earlier today, I met with someone who may fill the void in another ministry.

In less than three months, I will be going into a program designed to teach people how to "love God and make Him known." I don't know why God called me to lay down these ministries so soon. I think it's like Abraham laying down Isaac, his only son that he loved, the promised child that God gave him. Sometimes God calls us to lay down the very thing He brought to us so that He can give us so much more--greater faith, deeper trust in Him, healing, joy. I think that maybe Abraham started finding his identity in his son, rather than in the Father. Perhaps this is what happens to us in ministry.

I love my life in the G. But God loves the G more than I ever could and He has a plan that I can't see. I trust that if He's called me to something else, it's for my complete good, and not for my harm. So I look with joyful anticipation to the next step, not because of WHAT it is, but because of the One who called me.

I am finally surrendered.